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On Tuesday the doctor said the uterus and cervix had dropped preparing to miscarry. The backaches and cramping that had been happening on and off were actually contractions. Wednesday they gave me medication to start dilating the cervix, but my body went into back labor and heavy contractions. I was in labor without medication from 1pm to 3 pm when they finally put me to sleep. Before they put me to sleep the nurses and doctor held me and let me cry, they were wonderful and assured me that there was no way I could save Brennan. I didn't feel anything and the doctor told us afterward that Brennan was already gone. If they hadn't done the procedure I would have gone into early labor and miscarried within the next two days which they said would have been very dangerous for my body. God answered my prayer in his own time and took her with his own hands, not the doctor's. And for that I am eternally grateful. I love her with all my heart and I know she is finally at peace in a far better place. I pray that God will hold her close. I know my little minnow will always be a part of me. I am still a mother no matter what anyone says. I am the mother of a wonderful daughter who was too beautiful for this world.